Lessons learned from my Courageous Sister…

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Greetings all, I hope your Journey is progressing well. At the risk of getting too personal, I wanted to share a song and some memories about the lose of my Sister Beckilyn. Usually the Big Brother is supposed to influence the younger sibling, however in this case my Sister was so unique and dynamic, She influenced me! And ultimately put me on the path to creating Dispel.

So my sister battled Kidney Disease for 34 years with the Strength and Courage of a Warrior, while preserving the wonder and magic of life, like a Soceress. The battle was real and there were good days and bad. Weeks in a hospital, then to rebound with a crazy fun weekend at an anime convention, in full cosplay! She was a poet, a painter, a seamstress and a voice actress, You’ll soon hear what I mean. But ultimately she was a person of Character. And I’m glad to have had her in my life, in fact it was the one song we did together, that planted the seed for Dispel. So here’s the song, as a free download; it’s all about heroic fantasy, and would serve as a great intro for a gaming session!

“Gaming Narrative” – feat Beckilyn Doland – Free download

Click on Phoenix below to hear the song

(When song plays, right click on song bar to save audio)

Phoenix Painted by Beckilyn Doland

You might be able to hear how this song was the very early beginnings of Dispel, before I had the name, the logo, or the full concept for the band. My Sister was the muse to expressing Heroic Fantasy through music. The Vision took a few years to gel. I would write down ideas on a dry erase board, and looked for clues to bridge them into something coherent. Looking back, it turns out the song Becki and I did together, contained that core essence, a Holy Grail!

Illustration by Beckilyn Doland

So I honor my Sister, a true Heroine that had the heart and courage of a Phoenix! She was such an amazing an influential soul. I find solace in believing the souls that cross our path, do so for a reason. Not sure why she had such a tough road to travel. For damn sure it taught me to appreciate what I have. So for those out there that are on a difficult road, experiencing struggles, loss or sadness; I wish I had the words of wisdom to help, some insight of healing to share, unfortunately, the best I can offer is the acknowledgement that it’s Real, and my hope is that you find the courage to endure… Scott Dispel

Beckilyn Doland

Please share your feedback, insights, stories, lessons and memories below. I would hope that others could benefit from reading and sharing their stories and comments : )


  • Jonathan Martin-Ives says:

    Wow! Your sister was amazing… The world has lost a great talent and a good person.?

    • Dispel says:

      Thank you! Appreciate your feedback, you’re a Good and Honorable Man Jonathan.

    • Daniel Rashe says:

      I love it. I will use it in wy game introduction

      • Dispel says:

        Hi Daniel, thank you for the feedback!. Beckilyn and I had such a fun time recording this.
        We hope it brings you and your gaming group Joy. We get alot of feedback from other gamers.
        Our 1st. Ed Dungeons & Dragons Campaign
        is on Fridays, we all look forward to it all week long…!

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