We sincerely hope you’re enjoying the music we sent, and we are humbled & honored that you’ve joined us on this Musical Journey! We wanted to share some of our story and we honestly believe you’ll be able to relate, and will understand where we’re coming from. Let’s Begin…
Ever have times in your life, perhaps fleeting moments that seem to leave a lasting impression? It seems when we focus on what really inspires us, which is not an easy task! If we can listen to that inner inspiration, be it strength, courage, or virtue and finally heed that inner voice, interesting things take shape.
I often wonder where do these inner drives and longings come from, perhaps it’s a voice from the past, our distant past? Here we are in the 21st century, but the only things that resonate with me are the legends, lore and imagery of the Ancient, Medieval and Gothic ages. Can you relate? Having always heard the beat of a different drummer, quite literally; I knew I had to find a way to really connect, or perhaps contribute to this longing. But how?
As a youngster I was extremely fortunate to get drum lessons (thank you Mom). I knew there was something unique about music, like an alchemist discovering the 7th element. I wanted music to be an outlet to reach others, a potential bridge to my lost tribe. But what is the tribe of a pencil thin, socially awkward nerd? I soon discovered Dungeons & Dragons and my imagination blew up. Have you ever been into a hobby; where it completely absorbs you? Yet something was still missing, it was the music I heard on the radio, it was just not cutting it. Then like a blessing from Heaven I heard ‘Rush’, then ‘Iron Maiden’. I can remember being in awe, so amazed that there were bands that wrote songs about Sci-Fi, Fantasy, Classical literature. Finally after hearing ‘Black Sabbath’, music and guitar would never be the same. It was about this time that friends told me to read ‘The Lord of the Rings.’ My fate as a nerd was sealed! I instantly felt a kinship to this music, these stories and wanted to remain in that atmosphere. But how? Can I make music merge with Medieval fantasy? I had to figure out how. It became my personal Quest…
The quest began in earnest and I embraced drumming with religious furor. It was during these early years that tragedy then struck our family; my younger Sister Beckilyn, became deathly ill with Kidney disease, it cut her life short and to this day I struggle to understand and accept why someone you love has to suffer. But the memories we shared of epic Dungeon & Dragon games, really created a unique bond between us. In fact we wrote a fantasy inspired song together. This simple song was the seed that hatched ‘Dispel’! I’ll share that song and more about my Sister in a later blog.
As an outlet and coping mechanism, I explored the underground hardcore punk scene and the recreational drugs and alcohol associated with it. Fortunately, that abuse was only recreational. Soon I began drumming behind a band called ‘Face Value.’ Which gave me a valuable glimpse towards my personal quest. Surrounded by troubled Punk youth, we were all looking to connect to some lost tribe. The band actually had a solid line-up and because of a well received 1st album, we ending up touring Europe. Immersed in historic European culture and awe inspiring architecture, I was a hopeful 24 year old who was beyond appreciative. Or, maybe it was that first taste of Jägermeister in Germany?! In an atmospheric Goth club in Berlin, I discovered another clue towards my quest, Goth music; it really left an impression, far more than I could know at the time.
That leg of the journey lead to seven years of paying hard dues, a squatter lifestyle, a ridiculous practice schedule, hauling trailers full of gear, and one van break down after another. It was after one final debilitating van break down, which claimed my last few remaining dollars; I realized I was dedicated to a lost cause. I thought if you gave your everything and dedication to something it would manifest? But in reality when your goals are not inline with the people you’re working with, it can create more struggle. This is true in so many circumstances, relationships, partnerships and beyond. A lack of stability and an unhealthy focus on the small details can obscured the big picture. I left the band ‘Face Value’, never to return. After years of hard work, I failed in my Quest….But did I?
The next few decades were about rebuilding, a degree in music, a recording studio internship and scraping out a living as bartender and Dj. I didn’t realize it at the time, but this was all part of the quest. I was becoming more prepared, retraining. During this time I read books by Joseph Campbell, ‘The Power of Myth’ and ‘The Hero with a Thousand faces’, in which he discusses the ‘Hero’s Journey.’ An archetype shared by world mythologies. He said to “Follow your Bliss”, It really helped to give me focus and direction. Are there turning points in YOUR life, or books that inspired you forward?
I began to understand, there are supposed to be challenges to face. When seeking our goals and dreams, they must be earned. It’s all part of the Human condition, we must learn and pass our own specific tests. The Ancients all faced their ‘Hero’s Journeys’ so must we.
I could no longer refuse the call. It was time to step into the unknown and write my own music. So why not write about the Journey? ‘The Hero’s Journey!’ Finally, after two decades I resumed The Quest, but this time around understanding what ‘The Hero’s Journey’ was.
I think there’s a part inside all of us that is vulnerable, perhaps that’s the reason we so often refuse the call. Whether we take the ‘Hero’s’ Journey’ willingly, or worse; we don’t and later succumb to regret. We ALL have to face our challenges and make the best out of what we are given. It’s a Responsibility given to every person born of this Earth, and that’s indeed a tough hand to be dealt.
So in conclusion, we are happy to present a piece of work the took a lifetime to realize, our premier Album “LORE”.
In closing, what is the challenge, goal or purpose in front of you? Are you reflecting, struggling, or actively engaging towards your personal vision? It is in this Spirit, that I honor and encourage that hidden strength inside of YOU. My deepest wish is that our music, shaped by the essence of the hero’s quest, may inspire you to take that next step into the unknown, to follow your inner voice. Your personal quest awaits, so embrace it, and ‘Attack your Destiny!’